Do what you love / love what you do.

I feel really good today.

I know it’s only 10.00 AM but I feel so pumped up! I kept smiling and when I looked at myself in the mirror I actually thought that I look good. Which is rare, these days.

You know yesterday I met my friends for lunch.. and the first thing they said to me after we greeted each other was “you look so worn out, what’s wrong?”. Then after meeting them, I went to the toilet and just stared at my reflection in the mirror. I saw a hollow face. Expression – less, worn out, and just empty. Okay I admit I never really wear make up going to the office, only powder and some lip-gloss. But yesterday.. I looked awful! Then I began to wonder.. what made me look like that?

I mean work was not hectic yesterday, I even barely had anything to do, since I’ve done all my tasks on Monday. So what made me look (and feel) so worn out?

I guess it’s work, in general. Ever since I’ve been relocated to a new department, working in a new role, I’ve been so stressed out. I like challenges and I know I should treat this as challenge, but boy.. this one is not easy at all. My work deals with a lot of numbers, and I admit I’m not a number person. I used to work with a lot of words and images, creating powerpoint presentations, now I have to deal with numbers and work with excel spreadsheets. So help me God.

As much as I’ve been trying to love what I’m doing, I still can’t. I began to like it, began to be able to do it, but not loving it. So I guess, that’s what made me so worn out everyday going to work. Because of that, I finally understand the saying “ do what you love and you don’t have to work no more everyday in life” (or something like that.. read it somewhere). It’s very important to love your work because it’s what you do every day. Every single day!

As for me, I’m still in process of loving my work. However last night I made some plans.. I’ll try and work really hard, but I’m giving myself a deadline and then find other paths. So I guess, that’s what made me feel so good today. Because unlike days before, I finally (think that I) have a solution and a plan! YAY ME!!

Now to all of you, do you love what you’re doing right now? I hope you do, cause that’ll be one of the best things in life. And if you don’t, just don’t give up that easy.. hang in there, try first, and if you still can’t, find the things you love and move on! Sounds like a good plan, isn’t it?