The unusual.

I know that this is my first post in 2013. As other first posts in a new year, I know I should write in a more positive tone, reflecting a more positive outlook for this new year.

But I just can't. Today just seems so wrong, the weather is wrong, cause it was raining this morning when I was supposed to do my morning run. It's still raining now, makes the air conditioner at my office exceptionally cold. I'm guessing there will be one hell of traffic going home tonight, cause you know how Jakarta is.. Give it a bit of rain to add on the usual afterhour traffic, boom you got endless jam!

Everyone seems wrong as well. I barely could concentrate on my boss's words during this morning meeting. I managed to get away though, didn't seem to make any trouble. I also barely could digest the words that came out from my friends' mouth during our lunch conversation. I'm sorry, I am a bad listener today.

Then he asked me about my day. I couldn't answer. All I could say was 'not good'. Unlike usual, I did not know what to say to him.

So this is my first post of 2013. So unusual. I don't know. I can't tell. It's just one of those days. One thing I know for sure, life has its way of ups and downs. This kind of day won't stick to my 2013. There will be better days, happier thoughts, more positive me.

As for now, I'm letting myself getting carried away by the emotions... But not for long.