alive

I suddenly think that it would be nice to have some parts of your memories wiped out. You know, like that “eternal sunshine of the spotless mind” movie. I think it’ll just make your life easier, happier.

Imagine this. You wake up one day and find that you didn’t win that audition. The one that you’ve been working sooo hard to get. Sucks, right? Then you can go to this place and get your memory about how you’ve been working so hard, and how you participated in that audition, erased. Gone. You go home, go to sleep, and wake up the next morning feeling fresh and happy, as if nothing happened.

Imagine this also. You wake up one day and find that your boyfriend has been having an affair, and he wants to break up with you. Double sucks. Again, you go to this place and get your memory about your relationship, the fact that you two had something something, erased. Gone. You go home, go to sleep, and wake up the next morning feeling happy, and ready to meet your perfect match. Your ex boyfriend? Ex boyfriend who? You don’t even have a memory of you two ever be together!

But then I think again. All those sadness, pain and anger are what make us human. We are human because we feel. Happiness, joy, pain, sadness, anger, all together. Would it makes us less human if we could not feel pain? Would it makes us numb? I don’t wanna be numb, I wanna feel and embrace things, because that makes me alive. Right?