my valentine

i know.. i know.. it's a little bit too late to write about valentine's day.. but here goes anyway.. hehehe..

ceritanya gini, some of u may already know that i'm a hopeless romantic. though i am completely agree that u dont need a certain date to express your love, i always celebrate valentine's day anyway. i name it " a special day where u're able to express it with the help of hallmark, chocolate, roses, and their kind " :p

during elementary school, my classmate bought me chiki and beng beng on valentine's day.
during junior high, i gave chocolates to my classmates. all of them, and i celebrated it with my english course classmates as well ( i think we exchaged chocolates, or something, im not sure )
during high school, my ex gave me this HUGE teddy bear and he took me out for dinner.
during college, 2007 to be exact, i send this simple i love u SMS to my besties and my family, where my father replied, and he said "thanks christa, i luv u too always." it wasnt long until i realized, that maybe it was a goodbye sign from him.. since he passed away the next month. :(

now, this year..
tadinya sih gue nggak kepikiran ngapa2in.. secara my work has been consuming me, i got no time at all, but i suddenly found out about this delicious chocolate melt cake shop, yang bisa pesen online! akhirnya gue dapet ide, buat mesen 2, one for my family, one for zia. tadinya lagiii.. gue mau minta dianterin pas hari sabtunya, ehh taunya.. si toko kue ini kalo weekend harus ada minimal order Rp.500.000! gak jadi lah ya... hehehe
so i ordered the cake for friday, got them delivered to my office, brought it home, and gave them to my family for breakfast the next morning, and delivered it myself to zia's house afterwards.
well it turns out to be a lovely day after all, me and zia went to echa's wedding, to plaza senayan, then to fast eddies to meet his friends. mirip mirip usual saturday night sihh.. but i was happy! :)

so how was ur valentine, everyone? hope u enjoyed it as much as i did.. :)

unwell

i feel terrible.
stupid,
childish,
unwise.

well, now i know, mom
and i guess im the kind of person who has to learn everything the hard way :(

extraordinary

there's this quote from last night's greys anatomy episode that i love.
it says:

"i believe we can be extraordinary together, more than we can be just ordinary when we're apart."

and that's what i'm holding into these days.
i know, and i think he knows, too,
that we're going through quite a phase here.
i'm changing, he's changing, and we both long for our old selves.

and as much as i believe that no one has ever loved me the way he does,
i want to change. i want to be a better me, a better companion, the best for him.
and im sure, we can work this out, cause we're extraordinary :)

doubutsu uranai

christina juwita
25/12/1986

You are Purple Monkey who is a straight forward, cheerful and honest person.
You are not very emotional, but work hard and have been smart enough to do errands around home from early ages.
You are clever with your hands too.
You give an impression of being unpretentious, and you are rather short tempered who would carry out everything by yourself.
You set your goal too high, and sometimes experience frustrations in trying to achieve it.
You like to take care of people and are kind and generous person.
You can not walk pass someone who is in trouble.
You take great care of your family and those who are working under you, and your attitude may be seen as too muc interference.
You will not be influenced by emotions, and you can make rational and modern decisions.
Your career will not be affected.
You tend to be rather cautious, and sometimes show unnecessary competitiveness.
This may cause friction in your personal relationship.
If you carry things actively on your own, you may suffer hardships.
You should lay back and let the time resolve things.
Your weakness lies in lack of planning.
You can show perseverance, so you should forecast the future before putting into action.
After getting married, you will carryout housework perfectly, and will be a good wife and a mother.
You can make sound decisions.

awake

well seperti post terakhir gw beberapa jam yg lalu..
gue masih dikantor, sodara sodara.
sekarang jam menunjukkan pukul 2.35 AM.
kerjaan tim gue.. hmm.. 70% deh! *hopefully will be done in another hour...amiin!*
kerjaan gue sendiri udah kelar 1, yg 1 nya udah setengah jalan.. *pheeew!*

kalo begadang gini gue jadi inget masa - masa deadline skripsi,
countless days of staying awake.. huhuhuhu
apalagi inget bgt gue pas H-1 ngumpulin skripsi, lagi sibuk ngompile, dimana gue gak tidur samaaaa sekali, total! dan gue sambil ngerjain skrispi gue itu sms-an sama temen2 seperjuangan gue, terutama si rikayuni yang sama sekali gak tidur juga. kita saling sms-an, udah sampe mana, lagi ngerjain apa, dan akhirnya ketika udah jam 6an, gue mandi, dan jam 7 udah brangkat ke kampus buat fotokopi dan jilid, sebelom akhirnya lari-larian seharian buat ngurusin pendaftaran sidang skripsi. (yesss.. dikampus gue urusan birokrasi emang masih ribet bgtt)

nah waktu masa - masanya begadang itu, gue ingett bahwa gue selalu ditemani lagu - lagu ciamik dari iPod kesayangan. nahh yg paling sering gue dengerin itu lagu - lagunya ADELE.
myyyy how i love her daring voice! keren bangeeett..
walopun lagu - lagunya sebenernya agak down tempo, tapii gue entah kenapa dengerin dia selalu bikin gue semangatt, kayak sekarang inii.. gue jadinya put my iPod on her songs again. hihihi.. makanya gue jadi inget masa - masa skripsii :)

ini beberapa potongan2 liriknya.. nicee :)

You're so provocative, I'm so conservative
You're so adventurous, I'm so very cautious, combining
You think we would and we do, but we do, but we do, but we do
(Adele - My same)

I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust,This is love but,
(Adele - Chasing pavements)

Forgive me first love, but I’m tired.
I need to get away to feel again.
Forgive me first love, but I’m too tired.
I’m bored to say the least and I, I lack desire.
(Adele - First love)

office

12.30 am
masih dikantor..
aw aw aw aw!!!
akhirnya gue ngerasain juga yang namanya "nginep" dikantor.. hahahaha
sejak gue memutuskan untuk "menyemplungkan" diri gue di dunia advertising, banyak orang emang udah ngewanti2 gue bahwa kerja di dunia advertising tuh gila. long working hours, and sometimes, never ending working hours! ya kayak gue skarang ini.. kacauu

demi pitching sebuah project nationwide dari brand terkemuka, yang nilai billingnya gede2an, sekantor gue rodi semua! udah dari jumat kemaren kita kerja ga ada abisnya, karena toh selain ngurusin pitching project ini, kita juga masih ada kerjaan2 dari on going clients kita. jadilah rodi rodi rodi to the max, hehehe. untuuung besok pagi udah waktu presentasinya.. jadi ini malem terakhir nihhh!

kalo diliat liat sih sebenernya kerja gue ga seberat anggota team yang laen. maklum cuma AE. yang sebenernya udah ngasih surat one month notice pula. (nah loo.. cerita apaan lagi tuh? later dehh :p) masih lebih berat para team creative yang kayaknya ampir tiap malem begadang, secaraaa yaa,, mereka kan yg harus bikin items2 creativenya. poster lah, flyer, logo, sticker, banner, apalah itu namanya..

kemaren pun my fellow AE si dian, udah sukses merasakan begadang, dikantor sampe jam 4 pagi!! dan tampaknya hari ini giliran gue, gantian dia yg pulang, kemaren gue cuma sampe jam 10 sih. hahahahha :p

gilaaa ini yg namanya mata udah periih,, badan udah pegel.. mana dikantor gue kan ngerokok semua, gue jadi tambah pusing.. tapi i have to work hard! i have to concentrate, karna pada akhirnya nanti gue yg harus ngecek2in semua kerjaan creative, make sure semuanya in-line dan sejalan, ga ada yg ngaco2. gue juga yg harus mengumpulkan materi definisi acara dan rundown serta budget dll, digabungkan dengan kerjaan kreatifnya, lalu gue email ke bigboss gue, yang akan gabungin semua jadi 1 dan bikin materi2 strategicnya.

seems like a tough job??
makanya wish me luck yaa!! skarang gue lagi nungguin kerjaannya semua orang ini kelar, baru gue edit, compile, dan kirimin ke bigboss. fingers crossseeeed!!! :)

anyway, today is my 11th monthlyversary sama zia..
ahahahaha gak berasa bgtttt taunya udah 11 bulan aja, one month to go to our anniversary! and more to come i hope.. amien :)

ragu

aku sangat meragu akhir - akhir ini.
begitu meragunya hingga kamu pun jadi ikutan ragu.
aku ragu, dengan keadaan kita yang sekarang ini, kita bisa bertahan.
aku ragu, dengan aku yang begini, dan kamu yang begitu, kita akan tetap bertahan, ketika nanti kita jauh.
aku ragu aku akan tetap sabar
aku ragu kamu akan tetap toleran
aku ragu kamu tidak akan berpindah
aku ragu aku tidak akan menyerah

aku tau, keraguan macam ini tidak akan berbuat banyak
tidak akan menyelesaikan masalah, tidak akan membuat segalanya lebih baik
aku tau, aku harus berhenti merajuk dan meragu
aku tau, aku harus mulai percaya

aku harus mulai percaya,
bahwa aku, kamu, kita
akan tetap baik baik saja
akan tetap sejalan,
dan pada akhirnya,
akan sampai di tujuan kita,
kira kira 3 tahun dari sekarang.

iya kan?