lucky

baru balik meeting dari kantor client, nyalain laptop, taunya telp gue bunyi.
nomer nggak dikenal. taunya kabar gembira!! hehehehe
apakah ituuu?
ternyata yg nelp gue adalah mbak eka dari majalah femina, yang ngabarin gue kalo gue menang 2 tiket jakjazz untuk hari minggu!

HOOOREEEE!!!! alhamdulilah..senang sekaliiii...
gue emang udah pengen nonton, sebenernya sih pengen yg hari jumat besok buat nonton kyoto jazz massive, tapii gara gara menabung demi hal hal yg lebih penting, akhirnya gue gak jadi nonton. ehh taunya dapet tiket gratis! yeaaay.. setelah gue liat schedulenya, sunday is not bad at all! ada soulvibe, RAN, (familiar faces.. hehe) lica cecato, dan sister duke. senaaangg!! :)

lucunya lagi, this is my first time, ngirim kuis kuis ke majalah trus menang.
hohoho.. maybe i shud do this more often ;)

wishlist

im counting days!
its 30 days left to my birthday.. :)
and just what i used to do every year, im making a wishlist.
here goes.. :)

1. hello lulu laptop case
secara, laptop gue yang udah 3 taun umurnya itu udah nggak punya casing yg "decent" lagi.. skarang aja gue pakenya casing gratisan dari majalah cosmopolitan, hihihi





2. nokia e71
jadi ya.. hp kesayangan gue si n73 udah hampir berumur 2 taun, keypadnya udah copot 1, kadang - kadang suka mulai musuhan sama sim card gue alias menolak sim card alias lagi tiba tiba gak ada sinyal!! padahal hp ini udah pw bgt.. akhirnya, gue berkesimpulan harus segera ganti hp (nabung!nabung!) dan e71 lah pilihan yg tepat.. bisa sekalian push email, dan keypadnya qwerty! warnanya putih pula.. sama kayak warna n73 kesayangan itu :)


3. a pair of jeans
two pairs sih kalo bisa.. gue lagi butuh bgt jeans warna biru washed sama dark grey. maunya siih.. sekalian cheap monday. biar sekalian bagus, dan long lasting gituuu... hehehe tapi kalo ada merek lain yg sama bagusnya dan pewenya, nggak apa - apa kook.. :p




4. GAP tote bag
yg ini gue liat di GAP grand indonesia sama zia minggu lalu.. bagus bgtttt.. lucunya, modelnya bisa dibuat postman bag jugaa! warnanya ada 3, black, beige, sama maroon. kita sepakat paling bagus yg warna beige, eh maroon deng. ehhh beige ajaa.. gue gak punya tas beige soalnya hahaha :p i tried to google it, and found the exact design! tapi nemunya yg warna item doang..



5. gossip girl book : it had to be you (the prequel)
i'm addicted to the series! hihihi.. terserah deh orang mau bilang apa.. im totally addicted! :p ini buku terakhir yg castnya masih serena, blair, dan, nate, chuck. soalnya di US sana, cast nya udah berubah jadi the carlyle twins. ( kan ceritanya serena dkk udah pada ke college..hehe) nah yg serinya carlyle twins ini gue kurang suka.. makanya pengen bgt punya buku yg ini, itung2 mengobati kerinduan terhadap serena dkk hahahaha ( duh, dibaca zia pasti dihina nih gue.. :p)


6. Action Sampler camera
no explanation, i just simply want it :p





7. a pair of brown/beige pumps/flat shoes

setelah kerja gini.. gue baru menyadari kalo gue sangat kekurangan sepatu. almost everday i wear the same boring black flat shoes. kadang2 ganti dikit sama flat shoes putih atau ballet shoes pink, but that's it! satu - satunya sepatu coklat gue, ballet shoes hadiah ulang taun dari temen2 taun lalu, udah jebol bagian depannya. makanya, gue butuh bgt niii sepatu coklat. maunya sih pumps, mirip2 sepatu charles and keith disamping deh, biar lebih longlasting dipakenya..hehe


8. Jam Tangan
gue orangnya tuh nggak suka gonta - ganti jam. asal udah punya 1, ituuu terus yg dipake, sampe rusak. hehehe. nah skarang jam swatch kesayangan gue sejak taun 2003 udah mati total, ga bisa diganti lagi baterenya, and i think i kinda need a more "mature" watch, if possible, one that can also be an investment. bingung sih maunya yg kayak apa, yg pasti gue sukanya jam rantai, kecil ukurannya, nggak pake bling2 atau permata2an segala deh, yg simple aja.. btw image yg gue ambil disebelah itu, adalah omega constellation. gak ngoyo minta itu juga yaa.. hahaha.. maksudnya, bentuknya mirip2 gitu deh, bulet, kecil, simpel :)


9. Digital Photo Frame
banyak nih mereknya, tapi yang udah pernah gue liat langsung si sony, kalo gak salah S Series namanya. ada warna item, maroon, sama putih. i tried to google the white one, tapi nemunya malah yg item ini. pengen bgt... lebih hemat doong, ga usah nyetak2 foto lagi hehehe



10. Speaker iPod
biar kamar gue agak lebih hidup, hehe.. maunya sih yang ini nih, phillips docking entertainment system AJ300D/05.. pokoknya warna putih, biar matching gituu sama iPod gue.. hahaha





11. Clock Radio
this Phillips Clock Radio AJL308/05 is a must have! lucu bgt, digital clock, alarm, calendar, daaan radio! bisa masukin foto juga.. lengkap yaa.. huhuhu pengen pengen pengen... :)




12. GulaGoela's Tiramisu
heard that it's super delicioso! udah gitu deket lagi showroomnya, di tanah kusir situ.. :)









13. Daisy by Marc Jacobs perfume
me likey me likey me likey! enak bgt wanginya, sayangnya di indonesia belum banyak, gue cuma nemu di harvey nichols grand indonesia, tapi harganyaaa... ckckckck. anyone going abroad these days and wud like to buy me this? hihi :)




14. Suzuki Swift Car
hahaha.. yg ini sih ngayal deh yaa... hahahaha.. btw i think i've mentioned this on my list last year. dari awal si suzuki swift ini launching disini, gue udah pengen bangeet .. wish i can buy it on my own, in another one or two years :)


yak itulah diaa.. my wish list for my 22nd birthday!
hope some of it (or all, and i would be very very very very overwhelmed :p) will come true! mari menabuuung :)

i miss you.

i really miss my college days ....

those when i studied hard .. (NOT! :p)
those when i rushed my way to class, only to find that the lecturer's absent, (or simply got lazy and decided to skip class :p) then spent the whole day chatting and laughing with my silly friends..
those when me and my friends went to PIM, CITOS, or PLANGI with no apparent reason..
those when me and my friends decided to make every friday as a "visit - other - faculties" day and "travelled" around campus, met our friends from other faculties..
those when me and my friends were busy busy busy with our extracurricular activities, LDMK, BISOS, HMJIA, Senat, Fisipers, BEM, and things in between..

i really miss my college friends..

Jinit, i miss having her around, having people mistakenly call our names, her foolish giggles, and her mature advice..
Ima, i miss "kidnapping" her for a shopping spree, our sleepovers, our statsos class and curhat session in between..
Ayu, i miss her miley cyrus and jonas brothers. nuff said. hahahahaha :p
Manda, i miss her "kesurupan" mode, her foolish giggles, and her silly voice..
Chica, i miss her clumsyness, carelessness, and the fact that she's always lucky!
Aya, i miss our curhat session, our gatherings in her house, our shopping spree , not to forget, her silly laugh as well :p
Sasha, i miss our "mature" conversation, i miss being trio ambisi with her and jinit, i miss our ambitious chats, i also miss our ladies night out :p
Bheqy, i miss her "ceplas ceplos" mouth, her criticisms , and our gossip time..
Shely, i miss her looooong curhat, and also her "nggak nyambung" mode.. hehehe
Za, i miss his curly hair, his tecno update, his "ceplas ceplos" mouth..
Thomas, i miss his mellow songs, our curhat session, our BISOS moments..
Bias, i miss the way he always late for classes, our BISOS moments, and not to forget, his "buncit" stomach :p
Nyu, i miss riding in his "super modified" jazz, our mathematic class, and ... his "adult life" lecture. :p
Dika, i miss his looooong curhat, his super busy appearance, his silly jokes and laughs
Kiki, i miss his "coolness", the way he drives (not! :p), his wallstreet things.. hahahaha :p
Fian, i miss his "metalness", his "devil" mode, also, his "nyela" mode
Blak, i miss his "metalness", and our RTC moments ...

i miss you all... take care guys, wherever you are :)

in case u forget,
i love you. :)

bereavement

Oct 9, 20.30 pm
sms dari mama. opa yang tadinya dikira cuma anget dan gaenak badan, jadi dibawa ke RSPAD, soalnya kondisi menurun drastis.
Oct 9, 22.00 pm
nyampe ke RSPAD sama caesar dan zia. caesar nggak mau masuk, nunggu di mobil. gue dan zia juga gak sempet ketemu opa karena lagi di Scan.
Oct 10, 11.00 am
ijin dari kantor, sama mama ke emerald dulu, trus langsung ke RSPAD. opa ada di ICU.
Oct 10, 13.00 pm
nyampe RSPAD, jam besuk ternyata udah lewat. cuma mama yang boleh masuk ICU. mama keluar pucat pasi, opa kondisinya lebih turun dari kemarin.
Oct 10, 13.00 - 17.59 pm
strike one. nunggu di ruang tunggu ICU. inget lagi setahun lebih yang lalu, jagain papa seminggu penuh disana. nginep di ruang tunggu yang sama. bau - bau yang sama. suasana yang sama.
Oct 10, 18.00 pm
jam besuk dimulai. masuk ke ruang ICU sama mama.
strike two. lepas alas kaki, pakai jubah rumah sakit yang sama, masuk ke area yang sama, bau - bau yang sama, bunyi - bunyian mesin yang sama. kondisi opa yang tak berdaya, mirip kondisi papa setahun lebih yang lalu. nggak kuat, gue keluar nunggu lagi di ruang tunggu.
Oct 10. 22.00 pm
pulang kerumah, gantian jaga sama oom neiles.
Oct 11, 2.00 am
dibangunin mama, kondisi opa bener - bener menurun. mama ditemenin marco dan marcella mau berangkat kesana. gue suruh nyusul pulang kantor.
Oct 11, 3.00 am
ditelpon mama, katanya opa udah nggak ada ..
strike three. tiga tahun berurutan harus ditinggal orang - orang terdekat. oma , papa, sekarang opa.

insyallah mereka sudah tenang disisiNya,
aku harus ikhlas...

father-daughter

temen kantor gue, si ferdi, tadi pas makan siang di pasaraya, mampir ke kidz station, beli kado ulang taun buat anaknya. status YM nya hari ini "happy birthday deandra" (nama anaknya).
that is so sweet.
jadi kangen papa... :)

nice one

missing someone gets easier everyday, because even though its one day farther from the last time you saw each other, its one day closer to the next time you will...

from alodita's tumblr :)

pictures

i was reading my old blog posts,
read my old stories about my family,
when i suddenly realized
it was very stupid of us to not took enough pictures of us together.
jarang banget kita foto sekeluarga, di acara2 dinner (padahal kita sering bgt family dinner) di acara2 ulangtaun (kita selalu celebrate every family member's birthday), foto2 iseng dirumah, apalagi pas lagi liburan.
it is sad.. apalagi kalo tau pops left us so soon. :(

the art of complaining

i realize that i've been complaining a little bit too much lately.
i complained about traffic
i complained about the weather
i complained about my job
i complained about my daily routine
i complained about my relationship
i complained about almost everything!!

puncaknya adalah wiken ini, dimana dua malam berturut turut gue had a sad, tiring and depressing talk with my boyfriend.
i almost lost us twice. i almost let go. i almost give up.
and that made me woke up this morning feeling nothing but emptiness.

uuh.. pusing gak siiih..
herannya my mind keeps doing it eventhough my heart told me to stop.
mikiiir aja mulu bawannya. padahal harusnya gue bersyukur. i should be happy, thankful, and counting my blessings, bukannya complaining.
does anyone have a happy mantra? :)